ok, i really have written like 3 brilliant blogs in my own mind this past week while driving, really compelling stuff people. and where is all that brilliance when i sit to write? is it too much to ask for a voice command recorder in my car when i say something like…”recorder on, blog post activate”?
so since i haven’t gotten that technology installed yet in my “starting to show its age around the edges” vehicle, i must go straight to the source and allow what comes up now to be the thing. and here’s the thing, it’s about being open to what is…and the beliefs i have about that. i guess this is sort of a Byron Katie question, but with a broader twist. what i have been learning the past few weeks is about the way in general i accept circumstances, results, behaviors in my life as if they were the only thing that is true. I know better than this don’t i?
lemme paint a brief picture…Mercury has been in retrograde for that past little bit. for those of you that question this whole astrological influence thing, that’s o.k. you just go on questioning. But i challenge you to do it while paying attention to what cycles come through your life. for example, A woman’s “moon” cycle rotates every 28 days, the tides as pulled by this gravitational force influence so many aspects of our own lives in their own ebb and flow. and certainly what happens during Mercury retrograde seems to reveal more and more introspective places of examination and shifting.
In general, Mercury rules all means of communication, commerce, education and transportation and people who use their energy in these areas like; writers, spin doctors,teachers, travellers, tricksters and thieves.
And somehow this energy moves into energetic glitches in electronics like phones, cars, computers–something in their operating system seems to go awry.
So why does this seem important to share?
i’ve found myself all wrapped around my own need to communicate, from just making phone calls in general, to sharing my deepest emotions and feelings in new ways. and during the past month, while this need in me grows to be more clear, transparent, open to connection and loving, by success at these connections has met with some interesting ripples in the process. i find myself circling back around to old ways of doing things, wondering why i’m ending up here again, and then realizing that habit is begging to be let go on a whole new level.
I think all that brilliant drive-time self-writing/ talking has been this subconscious beginning of finding a way to iron out the wrinkles. It may be that some of those wrinkles are just perfect to learn to navigate around, and it may be that when this time of retrograde arises it is an offering. Opening an energetic space to restructure how we think things “should be”, how attached we are to our belief about the way a thing must look.
i like to think that with all these teachers, travelers, tricksters and thieves being triggered, it’s no wonder i find my own face in each of these characterizations and that each demands its moment in the sun, with the light of exploration revealing what has been kept in the shadow until that moment. and so, gentle, gentle, gentle…be kind to self, love what comes up–allow it to be the thing!
Funny how this introspection cycles, see what other Decembers have brought up in me here