If the information is new to you, i have been on a new year’s quest for the past few weeks…a quest to go without…No plan to make any goals, resolutions and i am actually even shying sort of clear of intentions.
this could lead to the downfall of society…
So the two weeks are at an end, and i am sort of resisting going back to doing things any other way. i guess i am really loving this whole space in between where no need to categorize or assess my world exists; only a true desire to be actively engaged in the moment i’m in.
here’s what i’ve learned during this experiment…i didn’t really sit around on my duff and eat bon bons, in fact i decided to start a sugar cleanse. that’s right, you read me right…during my season of in between. i started a new eating plan. “how does that work”? you might ask….and i’ll tell you. it’s perfectly awesome to take on things i want to do during this time, i just do it without the whole notion that i have a goal to lose a million pounds, earn a million dollars and sell a million copies of a brilliant new bestseller. There is no need to constellate my plan with judgement or assesment, just energize it with action. i did the sugar thing because it feels like it gets in the way of my physical happiness. in all of my stillness and noticing, i recognized some moments where sugar seemed to feed my sense of less than well-being. so i chose to notice myself going without sugar for a bit.
i’ve spent 6 days so far in that part of the experiement, and on one of them i cheated. that bummed me out, but mostly because i noticed an immediate emotional shift into negatory good buddie! i don’t really love that zone anymore, so today, i shifted back to wanting what it feels like in the sugar free zone.
next, i started making some behind the scenes approaches towards building my own website, making the contacts i need, considering what content is relevant, what i might have to share in such a formal way that is worth putting out there. “what the freak!!!” you say, “how the hell is that not making any resolutions? this chick is a total bait and switch master!” no, no, no, here’s the deal, it hasn’t felt necessary to make a goal that i have a live website by a certain date, with a certain amount of relevant information all live and ready to go. it has felt relevant that i have some things i wanna do, and some things i wanna say and they are begging to get out…in a more formal and clearly designed way than a catch as catch can blog. so i can’t ignore that a great way to organize those thoughts, and then perhaps even grown them into some awesome workshops and projects that other people can get involved in, is to find a way to go public with. well whaddya know? in comes the website. all of a sudden it feels a little fun and exciting to eek out a few minutes during my week to put some creative thought into that and maybe a few action steps to back it up.
hmmm, still different from goals, but it feels like a really slippery slope i’m describing doesn’t it?
so here’s the deal, i’m so far from perfect that i am loving the whole concept of gently, kindly, lovingly letting myself off the hook on that one and putting down that expectation for good. in return, i am really thrilling in the joy of the PRACTICE of my imperfection. it is a daily habit i am starting here…noticing all the things in that day that support my total and complete well-being and finding a way to do a bit of that for the day. i do like that way it feels if i practice that for more than one day in a row, in fact, i am kinda really liking what it feels like to practice on a daily basis…this gets me absolutely nowhere closer to perfection, just a whole lot more actively engaged in living, and i guess that feels pretty good.